Sudden
1.
Usually they lounge
in the shade
beneath the canopy of tress by the fence
sleeping
but today from my balcony
I heard the sudden shrill
cries
of two cats clashing
on the lawn
I stood startled
as strange tufts of fur drifted slowly to the grass
2.
There was no warning
nothing different from yesterday
Every circumstance the same
Yet my memories come back
in sharp, painful jabs
I am sweating at the gym
or sitting in my car
My brain is like a dark cellar
the air stale
corners shadowy
In a movie, it’s a place you scream uselessly
“No. Don’t. Go. There.”
Such futility
But I’m good at wasting time
I am up at 2 AM adding up
all the things I do wrong
all the ways I could be better
My hand has to write
these useless scribbles
My mind keeps wandering in too many directions
an avoidance
of the inevitable.
Tonight I’m wondering:
What happens if
the spirit separates from the body
just floats away, waving with that gotcha smile
Am I in that spirit
or the body melting to the ground
I remembered I’d once watched
frightened
then fascinated
as my body spawned spirit after spirit
shadow after shadow
frantically flying away
like doves released at dawn
and I know they invade everything I see
those cries in the night
those cats on the afternoon lawn.
this is good – enjoyed
deanjbaker said this on April 2, 2012 at 4:48 am |
Thanks so much. I was a litte uncertain of this one, so it’s nice to get some positive feedback.
Dark Landscapes said this on April 2, 2012 at 4:54 am |
nothing better than a good catfight…*L*. but this catfight could be related between the light and dark. at least think so. it’s a real nice piece!!
doncarroll said this on April 2, 2012 at 9:05 pm |
Cat fights are quite loud when cats are usually such quiet creatures. Their sounds really scared me.
Dark Landscapes said this on April 2, 2012 at 10:58 pm |
i am also, very glad i found this blog. you’re writing inspires and i love the inner story told her, through the guise of a cat fight.
njsullivan said this on April 3, 2012 at 11:25 pm |